Two Faces in One

Driving Sebastian to daycare this morning. Listening to Goapale. Lost in thought. Trying to find a parking space. Thinking I should have left the car at home and strolled us to school this particular morning. I look in the rearview mirror to see what Sebastian is up to in the back seat. I see his little head bobbing to the music and his little face grinning wide at me. I immediately start laughing. He starts laughing. But my laughter is cut short as tears begin streaming down my cheek, for suddenly I see Michael's face smiling and staring back at me and not Sebastian's. I'm caught off guard. I wasn't expecting to see two faces in one right then, to see Michael's face looking back at me right at that moment. Sebastian's face....Michael's face. Two faces in one. Sebastian continues to smile and giggle. I try to pretend my laughter never changed into cries. I smile back. I turn up the volume and watch my son's little spirally curls bounce around. I take a deep breath and decide we will park the car back at home and walk to school today. We, or rather I, need the fresh air.